“For we are God’s handwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.” Ephesians 2:10
The cliché that motherhood is rewarding yet challenging seems trite, but it’s true. The specific challenge I’ve faced in this season of my mommyhood is that all day long I’m constantly meeting the most mundane of needs. Most require a level of attained skill (changing a toddler diaper is a wrestling match I feel I BARELY win every time), but their deeper meaning is elusive. I know in my head that there’s a purpose, but it’s hard to imagine that cleaning the kitchen floor four to five times in a day is a significant event in my life.
It’s true that as I serve my kids and my family I’m serving Jesus. In particular, Jesus emphasizes in the Sermon on the Mount that giving in an unrequited manner is the best path to certain heavenly rewards. I’m seriously imagining the rewards piling up (although I’m not sure if me trumpeting my good deeds on the interwebs negates the possibility of reward??!!), as all day long I am serving little humans who don’t serve me back (okay, maybe Kayla a little, but seriously, it’s like 95%/5% over here).
More than this, though, I realized I needed God to speak into me my purpose for this season. I need an anthem over my life. I felt as if despite the obvious purpose of being a mother to three busy littles, there was another purpose for me, meant to anchor me in this very draining season of life. So I sought the LORD with this in mind. God, what do you have for me in this season? What’s the anthem of my life right now? I felt desperate to hear the voice of God trumpet over me His call for me in this particular season, and after seeking Him relentlessly, I believe the LORD gave me my anthem and my purpose.
The anthem over my life has been a simple mantra: “Point to Jesus.” My passion is to show Jesus to everyone. It’s more of a goal than a reality, but it keeps me anchored and focused. My purpose has been more specific and very easy to accomplish and fulfilling at the same time. My purpose is to encourage women in the LORD. I’ve done this by praying for and private messaging the ones God has laid on my heart, with the occasional (read: rare) girl date as well; also by focusing my social media efforts on scripture and inspirational posts.
If you had originally pointed out to me that I needed to reach outside of my family to minister to others, I would have been defensive and overwhelmed. Can’t you see that I’m already doing, doing, doing? Is more really required of me? But what happened as I pushed past that mentality and stepped into God’s purpose is that I actually began to feel more at peace, more fulfilled, more like my life has meaning. There was actually no extra strain or drain on me.